Rise Up
Some of you have watched my videos and have seen that I have a tattoo on my arm. The words "Talitha Koumi" are there as a daily reminder. In Aramaic, they mean, "Little girl, rise up."
All my life, I've never been satisfied with mediocre. I've always wanted to do better, be better, think better, know better, grow better. I always did everything to the max. I've been successful in everything I've tried because failing was never an option. In my own mind, I had risen to the top and I had no doubt that's where I'd fight to stay.
That is until a few years ago... On the outside, I looked pretty darn successful. But, on the inside, I was hurting. I felt defeated. My personal life was a hot mess, my kids were struggling, work was overwhelming, and my brain couldn't process it all. So, I lived in defeat most days. I let the burdens of my life keep me down mentally, physically, and emotionally.
I pretty much walked around like an empty pinata. Bright, beautiful, and exciting on the outside. But on the inside, I was empty. Break me open, and nothing would even spill out. I was living because I was breathing, but I wasn't truly living. I strived to hide the pain that was inside, and I let it bring me to a breaking point.
Then the words "Talitha koumi" spoke to my soul. Little girl, rise up! Don't live in despair, emptiness, anger, bitterness, or defeat. Little girl, rise up and be everything you were meant to be.
Do not let the past define you...Do not let your difficult circumstances snuff out your light... Do not let others tell you who you are.... Do not forget who you want to be.... Don't let lies cloud your truth... Don't live in defeat friend - Little girl, rise up.
You were meant for greatness, you were meant to be more. Don't let yourself get to a point where you are okay being empty inside. Don't let yourself be okay being just okay. Little girl, rise up!
Show this world who you are and what you have inside you just waiting to burst out. Don't accept the voices that call you a failure - squash it and rise up. Don't let your hurt or anger or bitterness kill your spirit - squash it and rise up.
We were not created to be defeated. Little girl, rise up!
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Your words spoke to my heart. I have been hurt very deeply over the years, leaving deep scars. I too have gone through and continue to live with such emptiness and pain inside,while outside I might seem fine. The death of my father this past year sent me into the depths of despair. I am still finding my way out of that deep dark hole. The promise of my daughters wedding next September and being asked to do her floral arrangements has given me a purpose and hope again
Discovering sola flowers and you, dear Dana have given me inspiration. Rise up little girl is indeed something I need to remember. God bless you for sharing so much of yourself!
Thank you so much for sharing this. This is exactly how I feel n I don’t know how to fix it. I want to be the happy girl I used to be. I moved away from my family n met a wonderful man who loves me so much and we have two children together. I was recently let go from my job due to some health issues I am having. My work family is the only family I have in this state. It broke my heart to be sat on the curb after giving then 8 years of my life. There were times I put them before my own family just to find out I was a no body the entire time. I am now stuck home with my children n I feel like a bad mom cause all i do is yell. I am in so much pain everyday n cant afford to get my surgery with no insurance. I try getting a new job but I am limping very badly into the into the and it seems to be a turn off. I don’t know what happened. Companies used to fight over me n now I’m the bad mom that just yells at her kids that don’t listen all day long. I’m always angry n sometimes I fell like my family would be better off without me. Where did this girl come from? I tried talking to someone about it but its hard with no babysitter. Maybe I just need a phrase to make me snap out of it n back into the go getter that everyone loved, even me. Thank you! Xo
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